The game is up

I can’t believe that I had myself fooled yet again about this stupid cycle! I hadn’t even planned anything and only got excited when AF took forever to arrive. Actually we only baby danced once in the month! God I’m stupid. Anyway, I will try try again naturally until all hope is lost. Thanks for your kind thoughts. 



Stop getting excited.

AF is making her way into my life some time today. I did test again thismorning with a BFN. This afternoon the spotting has started. Oh well next month ……….. maybe


I thought I would jump on from my ma’s house to get some advice. Today is day 35? The longest cycle ever was 33 days but that was October 2006. I have tested today but nothing, stark white. I have brought some more Clearblue’s and might test again tomorrow but what else could it be? I have no signs at all, no spotting, did have cramping like ovulation back on about Tuesday/Wednesday but feel nothing now? I have my hopes up but I know that it would be a miracle. We did baby dance on CD15 but I hadn’t been temping or opk’s. So don’t know. D’s SA has always been bad but would could have turned it around so quickly. I’m jumping ahead, I haven’t even gotten a positive yet but it is really strange to be at at day 35.

Sorry guys that I have been and will be MIA until further notice, I don’t have access at home at the moment and being that I work in a call centre its hard to read every ones blogs and even update my own.

I will try and read some of the blogs but you will probably notice that I haven’t commented as I tend to run out of time. I apologise in advance.

Hope you all keep well and while I’m missing, that plenty of babies are conceived.

A leaf from Trace

I have taken a leaf from Trace’s book and one up’d her, I have 2 other blogs!

You will find me under the fitness blogs to the left side >

And also in the Ado*tion blogs also to the left >

I’m letting you know of these because I’m feeling a little lonely over there to the left, especially for the ado*tion blog. So if you feel like a nose about, go for it, love to see you there sometime soon, maybe …..

So much better

Well my worries about my fur babies were unfounded, not that its not true that Miss Becky knows my every move when trying to slink away to bed but they haven’t cried or anything at the door. I think mentally it was harder on me and not them. The bed feels so much better, minus the sand and dirt, and I am able to roll over without struggling for room, 2 dogs on the bed and a cat can to that to you. D still can’t believe that he came home on Thursday night and the dogs were locked out of the bedroom. I don’t know if I can explain it properly but I know that we love out dogs and so do many people, but who in their right mind would go as far as sleeping in dirt for their dogs? every night? for no other reason except that its there? No because they are sick or injured and lying in the yard and unable to move so you sleep with them (not that has ever happenedhere) but you get my drift. So I still love my dogs to pieces but there are going to have to be things that I draw the line at from now on.  

So Monday is drawing closer and we have our second day of Ado*tion Training. I am so going to be in trouble for not completing the homework. But there are just stuff there that I don’t understand or even know if we were meant to do it and now of course its Saturday, I could have called DHS all week to find out if we were meant to complete it all but NOOOOOOOO not me. Darn it. I suppose its not like they are going to inspect our folders like we are in primary school …………………… are they?

I have ordered my new fertility necklace so hope that this will do us the trick in the near future but I really do not hold out any hope on that front. I think that the game is over for bio babes until at least 6 months of savings and ICSI comes back into the picture.  

Note – * is because we can not in this country do both and don’t want it tracked to me that we are indeed doing both bio and ado*tion

That’s right they are circling me, my every move. Or they could just need to pee! We are getting our fence replaced next Thursday but today I swear I saw my Master Humphrey returning from the neighbours house so have had to lock my poor babes in our small pergola to that they can’t get through the fence in fear that they will hurt the dogs next door. I have called the neighbours to ask that they check the opening on their side as D isn’t home until after 1.30am but because its dark I can’t tell if they have done anything so have kept them locked in. Poor Miss Molly has never had to pee in the pergola before so don’t know if she is just hanging on.

However any false move from myself and Miss Becky is on my tail trying to follow me into the bedroom. I think I will cry myself to sleep tonight along with my fur babies. As we speak they have followed me from the lounge down to the computer room and are laying around my feet, just in case I make a break for it to the bedroom. I don’t know who it will be harder for tonight, the fur babies or ME.